Fat Man on a Diet

More later.

Looks like I’m going to have to take this one step at a time. I think some of my problem restarting the diet can be traced to the ‘cold turkey’ approach.

I was already tired before I decided to jump in yesterday so giving up food and trying to give up caffeine together were almost doomed to failure. My willpower was already undermined because of the exhaustion so I was just asking too much of myself.

Nevertheless, determination will win in the end. I’m going to let myself sleep a little over the next couple of days… reduce the carb levels a bit and cut down on the tea slowly.

Kids will be back in school next week as well so I’ll start back in the gym then. I know I keep putting is off but it’s hard to juggle everything and when you’re tired it’s just too easy to put it in the ‘too hard’ basket and walk away.

Can’t do that forever, so have to develop some new strategy for fooling myself into getting on with it

Yet again I wimped out. The combination of sleep deprivation, hunger and working in the kitchen won out.

Try again tomorrow… with weight, BP, and a trip out of the house… **anywhere** out of the house!!!

This house is *full* of food! We still have the remnants of the ham in the fridge… there arfe sweets and lollies left over from Xmas… there are still mince pies and Xmas pudding sitting looking at me… or maybe the other way round.

Either way, the point is I am so hungry I’m almost thinking of waiting until tomorrow to start the diet – except for knowing that tomorrow never comes!

I really need to focus so I’m off to get on with something else – tidying would do it – and try to ignore the headache that is building up as the effects of caffeine dependency wear off… again.

Why oh why do I drop off the diet? I was feeling *so* pleased with myself 10 kilos ago!

It would seem so… so far I am *really* back on the diet!!

I’ve not weighed myself yet, I figure I’d leave it until tomorrow to start that, but I *have* gone back on the diet as far as I can. Today I haven’t had any tea or coffee, I’ve eaten nothing ‘off’ the diet and only drunk water… and I’m **starving**!!!

Despite having been on the diet before several times I was a little unprepared for the sudden attacks of the munchies I’ve been getting all morning. I know that they’ll pass in a day or two… but right now all I can do is groan and try to stay focussed.

As they say in Wales… Duw it’s hard!!!

Several times I’ve said “I’m back!”… and several times I’ve had false starts.

The problem has been the number of people living here over Xmas. However the daughter, husband and kids will be leaving for home on Monday so I’ve told myself that Monday *will* be the first day back on the diet proper… and Tuesday morning will be the first day back in the gym.

From then on the struggle will start again. Right now it’s just too hard to focus on myself and my dietary needs.

Understandably, since I reverted to the ‘old’ way of eating, the weight has piled back on and it’ll be a hard, hard slog to make an impact on it, however I know I can do it… I’ve done it before.

I’m hoping I can persuade the wife to go back to doing the cooking for a little while to keep me out of the kitchen and ease me back into the regime… but I’m yet to have that conversation with her. Either way – I’ll just have to do what I just have to do. The alternatives are not pleasant.

So. Don’t expect any major posts from me detailing the horrors or restarting the diet for a few days. The first posts might be Monday… but I think they’ll probably be on Tuesday. But be warned… from then for a couple of weeks it’ll be a 100% whinge fest

Horrible word that but still valid as far as I know.

Well my hriff* has expanded over the past few weeks but I’m still maintaining the 127 kilos I’ve been for a week or two.  I went to the gym once… then had *so* much work to do at home I had to simply abandon the idea for a week or so until normality is resumed… whenever that might be.

People keep saying ‘health first’ but they aren’t always the ones who have to live in the mess and squalor that the house descends into if I didn’t try hard to keep it fit to live in.

I’ll try to maintain the diet at least… hard as it is… but for the rest it’ll have to be put on hold.

Obviously I’ll keep working on the blog sporadically but there is just so much to do… and so many people here on my machine… it isn’t easy to keep it all together. I’m sure I’ll find a way tho

*What’s a ‘hriff’ I hear you ask… and I shall let you know. It’s just an obsolete word for the frontal area of the body between hips and shoulders… what is commonly called the tummy, belly etc. The only remnant of the word I can find in the language nowadays is ‘mid-riff’ which has lost the ‘h’.

Language is a funny thing and has little to do with a blog about dieting – but I couldn’t resist that one

Well can’t tell you my BP right now. The machine is buried somewhere on my desk under heaps of rubbish.

I’d actually forgotten I was recording it but I’ll look for it today to make sure I keep the chart going. 

Fresh from the gym yesterday I called in at the doctors to organise an appointment. The doc has given me a referral for a CAT scan but obviously it still isn’t clear what’s wrong with my back/hip/knee etc. but with luck I’ll find out soon!

However she *did* give me a different anti-inflammatory drug to replace the Advil (Ibobrufen) I’d been taking for the past two months. Will it work? Who knows. Seems better so far today.

However when I got back from the docs yesterday I wasn’t too good. The result was I let my willpower slip a bit and ate more than I intended… also the ‘wrong’ stuff. For example I had a couple of chocolates… a bottle of ‘light’ beer… and some cheese! Nothing massively off I suppose but more than I should have bearing in mind I’m supposed to be getting back on the path.

Still, the weight is still sitting at 127.0 kilos and I can’t even go to the gym this morning because the youngest daughter is going to a friends house for a ‘play date’.

The diet isn’t so good so far, but I’m looking at each day as a new start… and it might take a few days to get right back into it with all these distractions around me for the next couple of weeks.

Spent an hour at the gym this morning. I weighed in at 127 kilos which is nothing to be proud of, but ast least I was *there*… always a good start!!

Did an hour on the treadmill just to start to break myself back into the regime.

Started at level 10 but increased it to level 15 for most of the hour. Started on 5.0 kph but for a short burst was up to 6.0 kph!! Long way to go again but the first step is always the hardest… and I *did* burn off 1400 calories so it could be worse!